Nine Weeks

I’ve been writing over the last three weeks but not publishing. I’m not sure why really. I feel in a strange limbo at the moment. My heart still aches, my mind is still full of…

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Six Weeks

Today I am scared.  (function(i,s,o,g,r,a,m){i[‘GoogleAnalyticsObject’]=r;i[r]=i[r]||function(){ (i[r].q=i[r].q||[]).push(arguments)},i[r].l=1*new Date();a=s.createElement(o), m=s.getElementsByTagName(o)[0];a.async=1;a.src=g;m.parentNode.insertBefore(a,m) })(window,document,’script’,’//www.google-analytics.com/analytics.js’,’ga’); ga(‘create’, ‘UA-61228924-1’, ‘auto’); ga(‘send’, ‘pageview’); I’m scared because I thought I was coping but I’ve realised I’m not. I’m spending each day manically distracting myself, petrified…

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Five Weeks

The more time that passes, the further away I feel from Aneurin. The longer the gaps are between tears and overwhelming bouts of grief, the further away he feels. The desire to wish time away…

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Three & A Half Weeks

Today should have been one filled with nervous excitement, joy and quiet apprehension. We should have struggled to sleep last night but still woken up with a start, eager to get out of the house…

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Three Weeks

Everything is a painful reminder of what we’ve lost at the minute. We are forcing ourselves to go through the motions, leave the house and do normal things which I think is helping in a…

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