Fatty Does Yoga

You’ll probably have realised that this year thus far has been incredibly tough. My mental health took a plummet like I’ve never experienced and for the first few months of this year I was extremely unwell. I can’t recall a lot of this year and to be honest I’m quite glad because it’s not something I want to relive. Fortunately, after a lot of effort on my mum’s behalf, I got some support and through a series of trying assessments and such I am on a delightful cocktail of new medication and am trying new therapies. The biggest thing that has come from all of this is that I simply need to treat myself a bit better and one of the things I want to start doing is some exercise. Although it’s something I’ve always known will help I’ve avoided it for a long time even though I know that exercise = endorphins which = a happier and more relaxed Mrs D.  (function(i,s,o,g,r,a,m){i[‘GoogleAnalyticsObject’]=r;i[r]=i[r]||function(){ (i[r].q=i[r].q||[]).push(arguments)},i[r].l=1*new Date();a=s.createElement(o), m=s.getElementsByTagName(o)[0];a.async=1;a.src=g;m.parentNode.insertBefore(a,m) })(window,document,’script’,’//www.google-analytics.com/analytics.js’,’ga’); ga(‘create’, ‘UA-36804072-1’, ‘frivolousmrsd.com’); ga(‘send’, ‘pageview’);

Yoga is something I did years and years ago and I’ve wanted to get back into for ages but general anxiety and fear of being mocked for not being able to do things due to my size has prevented me from going. Getting as poorly as I did combined with reading this brilliant post from Callie at exactly the right time encouraged me to try it at least once. I asked around on Twitter for peoples’ experiences of being fat and doing yoga and the general response was a positive one which spurred me on even more. Fortunately my lovely hairy husband volunteered to come with me which was an enormous help and despite both of us having reservations for different reasons, we both really loved it.
When I started looking for a class I stayed away from gym run ones because my experience of those has never been good. I simply googled local yoga classes and had a good look at each website. I really wanted to find one that was going to be inclusive with an experienced teacher who would be supportive and able to alter things should I need it. There was one website that had an FAQ section with things like ‘do I have to be slim and super fit to take part?’ and ‘I’m worried that I won’t be able to do some of the postures’ which made me think it would be a good fit for me. Unfortunately husband and I decided not to contact her first and just turned up on the one week out of the year when she was on a course! I had really built myself up to go so was a bit disappointed but when we got home I sent her an email to say we would like to attend and also mentioned that I was concerned about my size. She was really lovely and said it wouldn’t be an issue at all and she always gave alternatives to postures. She made me feel very relaxed and I’m so glad we went the next week because it was brilliant!
When we arrived I was a little worried because everyone else was obviously quite experienced and got straight into stretching out and such. The teacher immediately put us at ease though because she was so friendly and enthusiastic, plus she talks a lot which I like in people because it makes me feel better about the fact that I talk a lot too! She had a little chat with us beforehand about what to expect and what we’d be doing. As she said she gave alternative postures to everything even though we were the only ones who needed them and she made sure we were happy with what we were doing. There were a few things that I couldn’t physically do because of my fat and she was very good at noticing that and offering me alternates in a discreet way which I really appreciated. The main things I was unable to do were things that involved my upper body being near to the floor whilst in floor positions simply because my tummy and boobs were in the way. Yoga is meant to be an ‘as much as you can comfortably do’ exercise so I didn’t feel like I was doing anything wrong or that I wasn’t good enough. It turns out that despite being a porker I’m still incredibly flexible, more flexible than Mr D-the-active-rower which made me feel quite smug! 
The whole experience wasn’t a fraction as unnerving as I thought it would be and it had such a positive result. The fact that I was able to actually get out and do something that scared me made me feel like I’d really achieved something, the using my body in ways I don’t normally and physical side of yoga made me feel energised and the relaxing, mindful element of yoga made me feel so chilled out and focused. It’s definitely something I’m going to keep up.

If you’re toying with the idea of doing some exercise whatever it is but are scared for whatever reason, give it a go just once. There’s nothing to say you have to do it again if it’s completely awful but I guarantee it’s never going to be half as bad as you think it is. Just make sure you don’t go with someone who insists on saying ‘yooooga’ in the toga style all the way there and back… Thanks, husband.

Mrs D x

ps. I’m going to do a post on Sunday with what I wore to the class. It definitely deserves it’s own post because goodness knows it’s rare to find activewear for fatties that isn’t completely hideous and uncomfortable! 

pps. If you’re in Northamptonshire and want to know the details for this class, leave me your email address and I’ll send you them. 

3 thoughts on “Fatty Does Yoga

  1. Really happy to hear you're taking on yoga, I personally love it! Im glad is helping you, can't wait to see the post about active wear, I recently found the taking shape one is really good (a bit expensive) and primark also has some bits that are ok, xx

  2. Good for you, lovely! I do yoga from home and I love it. I hope you start to feel the benefits soon. Better sleep and a kick arse 'I can do this!' attitude are a couple I get after doing it. x x x

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